All I ever wanted...

.. was a simple way to get over you."

I didn't know whether or not what happens between us is coincidental, but what I do know is that you mean so much to me. Sometimes I really wish that I hadn't met you, that everything happened was just a bad dream. I've never been able to go a whole day without thinking about you, without aching a little.

And now you're sitting there, in someone else's arms, smiling with the most joy I've ever seen on your face. Something inside me sinks. I often wonder if I'm such a fool for focusing so much on figuring out how you feel about me and forgetting how much I am loved. I never really know why I'm always chasing after you, longing to be in your presence, to feel your affection, to know what it's like not being just a shadow in your life.

I'm trying so hard to make things okay between us, to make things a little less painful for me. But it seems impossible. It seems as if you're always going to be the way you are, and I'm always going to be the only one trying. But I still love you.

"All I ever wanted... was you."